Typing in the numbers 2-0-1-7 was such a surreal moment for me. Maybe surreal isn’t the right word. I’m not sure there is a word for it. 2016 seemed to swish by, but at the same time, so much happened that 2017 seemed so much further away. I glanced at the calendar before sitting down to write and noticed it was already January 9 which means nearly half of the first month of the year is past us.
It’s unnerving in a way. In my mind, I still have months to prepare for Baby and the truth is that we do still have about 3 1/2 left, but the 3 1/2 compared to the 6 we had back in October suddenly seem so- fragile. My days suddenly seem more delicate. Ideas about nurseries and strollers and parties have suddenly become plans and I find myself a bit stunned that it’s happening. I’m used to the idea of having the baby, but having these small, yet foundational decisions made leaves me sitting on our bed at the end of days just feeling so uncanny. I feel as though in a second this fragile bubble of time and space is going to burst and we’re suddenly going to be absorbed in this new stage of life. I’m so excited- but also can’t believe how quickly these 9 months have gone by. It’s like coming to the end of your high school graduation and sitting in the parking lot. You can’t wait to leave in a couple more months for college, but you also can’t believe that all you familiarity is about to be stripped away.
It’s thrilling and formidable at the same time.
Looking ahead, our lives are about to completely change- 100% for the better, but the shift has us both a little tentative looking forward.
David is continuing his job as an IT specialist at the same company he’s been with since graduating college. He’s hoping for more advancement, but is being patient for now. In the last year, he’s taken on several small odd jobs that have really fit his personality. The extra income every month has been great for saving up for baby and other random expenses. Our goal is to get him more involved with things he’s passionate about. We’ll be getting him a space set up to use as a music room and I’m hoping to teach him more about photography and videography so that he can help me more with the blog and other projects.
For me, things are going to change a bit. I’m still working with Miss Mustard Seed but my role there is beginning to shift as I prepare to be home more with the baby. After the birth, I’ll be working remotely which is going to give me an opportunity to grow myself in other creative areas.
I’ll also be working as an associate photographer from Autumn Kern Photo. That sounds really fancy, but you all know Autumn is one of my closest chums so I’m more than elated to be working under her. I trained with her this fall and have started to book my own engagement sessions and weddings under her brand. I’ll be shooting and handing cards over to her to edit and deliver. I feel like I’ve already learned so much in the short time I’ve been working with clients. It’s been amazing to see my photography improve and it’s also been encouraging for me to learn how to interact with clients. As an introvert, that can be the most challenging, but I’m grateful for experiences that push me to feel uncomfortable.
For those asking, my sweet Nutmeg Coffeehouse has been put on hold for now. Both Addie and I ended up getting pregnant this summer (she just welcomed her second child before Christmas!) so we put out little dream on a shelf for now. I think someday, I’ll chase that dream of blending coffee and community, but for now, I’m focusing on projects that will keep me close to home with my sweet babe. I will forever remember my dream chasing summer brewing cold brew and connecting with locals.
As far as R&T is concerned, I’ve seen such wonderful growth in the last year that I’m eager to see where this year is going to take it! I plan to continue to expand my business goals with the blog being the anchor. A lot of the journey will depend on how I adapt to motherhood, but every time I sit down with pen and paper, my mind is just buzzing with ideas and I can’t always jot them down fast enough. My goal is to continue to push. I saw such incredible results from constantly stretching myself in 2016 and know that I still have some elasticity left in me. I want to grow as a creative. The status quo is so easy to rest in, but I am not ready to sink into that quite yet. Every day I want to grow more- personally and professionally. I want to be more and more vulnerable and see how my world expands in doing so.
For posterity sake, these are a few areas I would love to see growth over the course of the year:
- Writing- I’d like to do more editorial and creative pieces. Possibly in print but also here on R&T
- Video- David has been cheering me on to dive in and make some small films. My hesitation is that I would want them to be beautiful and cinematic, but I just need to get going and put some out there.
- Photography- in addition to working with Autumn, I want to continue to book and shoot portraits on my own. I also would love to collaborate more with local creatives to photograph products and events.
- Socialize- I struggle with this one, but I would like to continue to network and make more creative friends. This really opens doors for collaborations professionally and personally and I’d love to find more like minded people.
- Painting- I’ve been painting for a couple of years now but haven’t felt confident enough to get my work out there.
- Blog design- This is something I’ve been piece mailing together since the start and I think I’ve hit the point of needing some professional help. I need a design that flows better and fits more of my aesthetic goals.
- Finding inspiration from others rather than comparing myself. This is probably going to be the hardest for me. It’s so easy for me to be down on myself when I see what others are doing. But I really want to find my niche this year and embrace it.
- David and I both want to continue to strengthen our relationship as a couple. This means more open communication and vulnerability day after day.
- Obviously, I’d love to have a killer first year as a mom.
- I’m going to continue to work on overcoming my anxiety. I’ve made huge strides in this in 2016 and want to continue to push even further to eliminate worry in 2017.
- Making time for my spiritual life seems so quippy to put in a list like this, but it is something that I really want/need to be more intentional about.
- Loving harder- I really want to challenge myself to love people through difficult experiences. I’ve always been an all or nothing person with relationships and I’m hoping to find time for grace and forgiveness in place of the need for understanding.
So those are some goals that have been bumbling around my brain for the last week or so. David and I have high expectations for this year. I expect it to be challenging but also rewarding. I’m hoping for the best of days and am ready for some of the worst. It’s been an exciting 9 days so far and I’m pretty sure, we’re just beginning.
Until next time!